today was a great oklahoma day where it was windy, cold, and bad enough schools were closed. I spent all day at home and should have ventured out with laura lee because in my eyes it wasnt as bad as i think everyone made it out to be. i mean driving all crazy i dont think would have been a good idea but taking it slow and getting to the places you needed to get to would have been okay- i mean for some people. Some people are like omg i do not drive at all in this, i mean god forbid something were to happen where i would have to get on the streets because no no no. come on give me a break... now for you people who love snowdays and will use the snowday as an excuse not to leave the house- all props to you. my life is one big snow day though. they kinda lost there "OMG its a snow day" kinda feel now that im home like everyday and wish sometimes i had a long work day ahead of me. Isnt it strange.
i want to share part of lords word that Kelsey shared with me...
Some of you were sick bc you lived a bad life, your bodies feeling the effect of your sin; you couldnt stand the sight of food so miserable you thought you would be better off dead.then you called out to god in a desperate condition; he got you out in the nick of time. You heard the word of his that healed you, he pulled you back from the brink of death. So thank god for his marvelous love, for his mercy for his children he loves-tell the world what he has done- Sing Out!!>>this means alot to me, i was once a self absorbed addict who was struggling in the beginning with excepting the fact that i had cancer at 17 and all i wanted to do was escape and then i was in remission and had to except the fact that i was healed and for some crazy reason i was suppose to be alive, for months i then struggled with fitting into my life. finding friends was hard- i mean i missed my senior year, i took a little time off before going to college and living in stillwater i never truly met anyone who actually loved me for me and could help me be a better person.not only did i not have good influences i didn't have family that i could see as often.It took me months to realize that my life was more important. I am now working on my relationship with the Lord, for some reason he is pulling at my heart. I am thankful by the grace of his love he saved me from the life of constantly looking for the next way to get high, and all those people who only brought me down. i know god is not finished with me. My body had begun to feel the effect of my sin then, and now i feel better than ever and have for awhile bc i made the decision to step away from that dark lifestyle.
So thank you Kelsey for sharing those scriptures with me i love you "mamasita"
I know i prob should be down about life- I'm going to be 20 on Tuesday the 2ND but i will not let anyone bring me out of this high. this high of happiness and peace. I know i will make it through whatever the doctors have in store for me and once this is all over i will carry this perspective of life with me. i know nothing is going to be easy-treatments, sobriety, after treatment, etc-but i know it will be easier walking this journey with the Lord, friends and family i have holding my hand and pushing me harder.
much looovveee
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